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Monday, March 31st, 2003
12:55 am	Happiness, Light and Puppies Falling Over I just realized...*:ooo epiphinal moment:* I only right entries when I'm upset or just really pissed off. Or perhaps have a fun new toy. *:pets her surrender monkey:* So I thought I'd write an entry about how much I love life and all sorts of other cliches. Yeah. :nods: Jaki and Terri came over and we watched Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back and dyed hair. I decided that given my 2% bi-ness that in my top ten people I would have sex with, Eliza Dushku is very high on the list. See I'm working on it! No, really! Had the first rehearsal for Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead. Good news? I have a nice monologue that ends the play. Bad news? It's my only line. Ah well, good play, fun folks, much love. *:radiates peace and love:* *AND* I may have a summer job! Dressing up in 1700 style clothing teaching kids in a summer camp. Very hot but paying 150$ a week for five weeks. I just hope they don't get too heavily into corsets. Next week: Camping and trying to write. I can do it! Quote of the Day: "We're actors! We're the /oppisite/ of people." Tom Stoppard Current Mood: jubilant (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2003
11:03 pm	I challenge YOU! Mikado is a Pasta-Eating Surrender Monkey ...with a Battle Rating of 0.0 To see if your Food-Eating Battle Monkey can defeat Mikado, enter your name: (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 18th, 2003
9:51 am	Why I'm Not Proud to be an American I wish I could say that sometimes I hate this country but I can't. I love America, I love living here I just sometimes wish that any number of Americans could just...but if I say anything someone will make it look like I oppose this war for the wrong reasons. I'm not patriotic, I hate this country and that's why I don't want war. No. That's not true. We've been considered the International Bullies for years, and what are we doing? We're proving them right. We just killed the UN. Singlehandedly destroyed them. I wish for peace http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=northbard&itemid=99773&view=222141#t222141 Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 19th, 2003
3:07 pm	Michelle Stryjewski is a stupid bitch Alright. I am pissed off. Guess at who? Yeah. Subtle huh? Now I had a giant fight with this person last year, I hate her stinking guts and the feeling is mutual, but we used to be good friends. Or so *I* thought anyway. Maybe I was just deluding myself. I got backstabbed repeatedly (OUCH! MY BACK! DOWN!) And I thought I was over it, have a bunch of new wonderful friends at college, who do not think they channel angels (check out http://www.angelfire.com/cantina/lucifersnightengale/) But some things still just get me. Maybe it's just finding out that the stupid bitch had my yami no matsuei tape. The one I looked for for several hours over the course of several weeks. She called me stupid for leaving it there. That was when we were still "friends." Not to mention she never TOLD me she had it and I hadn't wanted to watch it again until I was home for the summer which was when I realized it was missing. That doesn't sound like stupid to me. It sounds like someone was being a fucking bitch. See, Im swearing! I never swear this much! And it's so stupid. But I love my Yami no Matsuei and to find out that...(no more cusswords for you, bad) has my tape thought I thought was lost just infuriates me. Straw that broke the camels back. Can you kill her for me? Onegai? I'll give you cheese! Current Mood: infuriated (Comment on this)
Monday, November 18th, 2002
11:36 am	Quiz Fun I'm sure y'all are all sick of quizzes. Well I'm exhausted from too too many plays. One closes the other opens. @_@ I want a life again! Please? Anyway, this result amuses me highly. How seme are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 10th, 2002
6:20 pm	I wanted to burn things. :sniff: Which Evil Anime Badass Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
4:01 am	Sleep is for the Sleepy Well it's four in the morning and I'm awake and figured its been a long time since I've posted and I can't really see much else going on so...yes. Wow. That wasn't ridiculously convoluted, ne? Blame the sleep fairies. Well it's hard to post while at WAC, so very little actually happens. I did get drunk for the first time, mildly tipsy actually. Quite enjoyed the experience, and the best part of tipsiness you ask? Floatiness and no hangover. It was a cast bonding experience for Crucible. I swear all plays need one drunk rehearsal, gets everyone more comfortable together. Just had a long rather disturbing conversation with my drunk roommate where I realized I know a heckuva (to quote Mr T) lot about sex through reading lots and lots of yaoi smut. @_@ Am considering sleep as viable option. Processing...rejecting...sleep is for the week. I only have to get up at 8:30 to build a set. I can manage. Play snippet, since I've been a busy beaver. Something About Apples Person: (intoning from a book) It all started with an apple. (pauses, tilting head to one side) Well, not exactly started, more like culminated with an apple. The apple. Darn pronouns. (puts down book all together) Let me put it this way; there was this garden, this guy, some tart and an apple. Given the choice between biting this Adam guy and some apple, the girl naturally went for the better metaphor. Sin, temptation, all that good stuff and an apple. I don’t know about you, but I’d have done it for a really good cookie. And that is your moment of zen. Be blessed, children of the kiwi. Current Mood: hyper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
7:03 pm	I'd never have guessed... Here we have my brand new quiz. ^_~ Which of my Crazy Friends are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Monday, October 14th, 2002
11:26 pm	Heh heh heh Pokey things See Phallic Symbol See Girl Run to PHallic Symbol Old Man Shrug See Girl See Phallic Symbol Old Man Shrug Create your own NES Comic (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 28th, 2002
2:02 pm	Whee! You will live in Mansion. You will drive a Blue SUV. You will marry Subaru and have 12 kids. You will be a Playwright in Japan. Want your MASH future? ^_^ Subaru I'm coooooooming! Wow. We were BUSY. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 26th, 2002
5:39 pm	Gah-ness. And Creativity. Well let's see. I'm not feeling horribly depressed anymore, the soda is far enough down it hasn't exploded in my nose again, and they gave me back by internet connection. That's good. I wish someone would bloody well talk to me though! I feel like I'm on an island here...I mean I know Chestertown is hickland but it's not also an island! Come on talk to me! I'm to shy to always go and poke people to say hi. I feel no love. :sniff: That;s the gah part of today's discussion. Other part..I am 3/4 of the way through making a Yami no Matsuei music video to Epiphany. (thank you Trina) It was originally going to be to Leaving on a Jet Plane by Liz Phair but thanks to having to delete my shared folder... -_-;;; It's really cool! Even better then my first one. If only the stupid program would stop crapping out! Grr. Argh. Saw season opener for Buffy. Sooo....cool. Spike...sooo...nuts. Sooo...not complaining. Hee. ^_^ Well thats it for now, tune in next week for "Days of Our Lives." Leave some love! Quote of the Day: "I was not dating with a famous person and she did not turn to me and say "Lovely pudding, can I try some of your ass?" -Duchamp Sat Here Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
Monday, September 23rd, 2002
11:59 pm	As always time for random depressing poetry I have an away message just for the writing of it. This one is based from the true events of last year at college. Angels My ex-roommate said She was an angel. Fallen from Heaven Like scraps to a dog. If she liked you, You were there too. If not, she’d just Gradually Make you disappear. It started slowly, Just fading around the edges, Maybe a little less solid In the mirror every day. As I scrubbed and scrubbed At her, as though I’d never be clean. She told me she was an angel. She flew on razor blade wings. And though I never lived In paradise, They cut me when I fell. (Comment on this)
10:56 pm	The Cat came Back Whee. Just feeling...blah. Not really recovered from yesterdays bout with depression, though I'm putting a brave face on it. Frustration mounting...depression too. Gah. No, no more depressing angst. I'm sure you all get enough of that at home. And I don't even really know what to say. I guess I want to get it out but I can't. I never can, really. Even talking to myself, into an empty black hole. I'm odd like that. Last year I'd even apologize. I'm sorry I'm unhappy, I'm sorry I have feelings. God, why do i even bother. I don't know. Maybe because there just isn't anything else. And sometimes I know it's melodramatic and stupid and sometiems I hope people read this so maybe they can understand and sometiems I pray they don't. I'm cnfused, going through the daily midnight angst and for gods sake won't SOMEONE RP with me before I go mad? Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 22nd, 2002
9:53 pm	My soda just exploded on me. I think I'm going to hide in a corner and cry until next year. (Comment on this)
8:44 pm	Make it Stop I don't even know where to start. I'll blame it on PMS. PMS won't hurt my feelings or make my stomach hurt...waaaaait. I feel horrible, depressed, useless, terrible, unwanted, unloved and like the worst piece of shit in the universe. People don't realize I have self-esteem issues. It's pretty easy not to. I pretend very well. I'm an actress, after all. Ha ha, tell another joke it's all right. No. It's not. I go away and cry but ha ha I'll just file it away in a list of ways I just feel useless and lonely. I act because I'm good at it. Whenever I got cast, whenever someone laughs or claps I feel better about myself. I need that support, I'm a good actress, when I'm good I feel good. When people like me, I can like myself. When I don't get cast I feel rejected, like it's personal. I suck as a human being. Which is why I will never be a professional. But the worst is when I get in a play, made it through the auditions; and I give a performance I think is just awful. I know I'm terrible, I'm sure other people must know just how bad I am and wonder how the heck I could be in this play in the first place. Guess what I did tonight? And my stomach hurts, and I have PMS and I just am NOT dealing and I want someone to hug me and make it better but there's no one here, and no one's going to. Current Mood: rejected (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 17th, 2002
9:01 pm	Manic Yo-yo It's been awhile since I last posted. Many apologies tot he squirell who reads this. :pats it on the head: Shit happened. That covers it. Ok, nothing really though one of these days I'm just going to have an all out bitchfest over last year. It's been building all summer and I've just been too nice to post it out to the world. Screw nice-ness. Not permenantly, but I need to scream or quite frankly my dear I'll kill something. But other than that today was tiring and then I had a rehearsal. Where I felt like the weakest link. I don't like my scenes. They don't show off any of my strengths as an actress and I have a real hard time with them. I'm not inherently funny and some stuff just doesn't generate the big "Ha-has." I'm sorry, gomen nasai, lo siento mucho. But it comes down to tough shit. Nicole, someone who I like, and who's opinion I respect, was talking to another person and was talking how some scene had to go, ending the discussion with "She really sucks." She then saw me and gasped, putting her hand to her mouth. Gee. Since then I've felt awful. Like my self-confidence is shot. And I had a callback right after that. Gee. I am just feeling depressed. Let's not even go into the Amanda business. Leave some love, if you read. I need it. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Somewhere from the Slayers Try Character Memories (Comment on this)
Monday, September 9th, 2002
8:45 pm	Busy weekend... Lets see, first I went home (REAL FOOD!) and then I did fun As You Like It show. I lie. Being Rosalind in As You Like It, when it's being performed outdoors is Hell on Earth. It's a huuuuuuuge strain and I'm constantly losing my voice. (Not to mention the bug bites :scratch scratch:) Then I slept. Solidly until the next show on Sunday. Ok. There WERE some breaks, but not very many. The last show. THANK GOD! This one was the flakiest scariest one yet. :shudder: Then my Grandfather came over and we ate (more real food) and then back to college jiggedy-jog. Twitch. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Piany Pink from Clamp Campus Detectives (Comment on this)
Friday, September 6th, 2002
12:17 pm	Quizzes! My personal favourite: I may not be your typical bishounen and I may not be rolling in fangirls like some but I am definitely the coolest character. Worship me. Take the Trigun personality quizlet here! And I didn't cheat or anything! WAI! Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi. Mmm....yes. Heh. ^_^ Current Mood: giggly Current Music: The AC Mmmmmm (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 5th, 2002
8:21 pm	A Touch of Madness I was feeling bizzrely creative as always. Here is random confusing poem #184523765 Eyefull. I dream of mirrors Reflections upon reflections. Spreading an unending web Of vast encompassed nothing. Freud would say I have issues. I just like mirrors. Vanity is all my names, But I am never there. Freud Was an ass. (Comment on this)
4:44 pm	People Love Me! Let's see, today is my big class day when I run around like a maniac from class to class. I got a 64% on mycomputing quiz -_-;; Its only the first quiz! I can hope the rest will be better. But most importantly today: people NOT ME have started to visit my website. I can hope that we can actually start the RPG soon. If you got here not from there (tho I don't know how) check out Delirium Rhapsody! Join the Yami no Matsuei madness! Hoping to RP with Trina tonight we had a cliffhanger last time. Good quote: "There's a billion places like home. But only one of 'em's where you live."- Terry Pratchett (Witches Abroad) Current Mood: chipper Current Music: The Mummers Dance by Loreena Mckinnit (Comment on this)